Friday, April 3, 2009

Does Love Destroy?

I read an interesting sentence by one of my favorite writers, Paula D'Arcy. "When Love moves, it sometimes destroys - but for our sake. Everything that is not Love, falls away."

When I first read that I felt despair. Did it mean that God was destroying my son, an addict? Or just me. I didn't understand it and I didn't want to understand it. I was afraid it would be too hard. After sitting with it for almost two weeks, journaling about it and then finally talking about it with my sponsor, my understanding changed. As I read the words aloud, it became clear that Ms. D'Arcy wasn't talking about God destroying my child - or me - but only that when I became aware of Love (capital L), all that was not Love in my life would no longer be important to me. No longer be necessary. No longer needed to defend what I "thought" was love and needed to protect because, out of fear, I thought it was all I had. All I would ever have.

A friend talks to me about "waking up" to her life. I feel as if I am waking up to Love. It is my focus. For this moment.

What does Love look like in your life? What does love look like? Is there a difference? Would you know?

God, show me the difference in my life.

Persevere With Joy!